It sucks to realize that when you're drunk, there's no one to pick u up. My "friends" are with my ex and I'm at someones house that I don't know. Wide awake. I haven't had a regular sleeping pattern in almost three weeks. I'll stay up ALL night, wide awake. I'll sleep for a little bit during the day but I think not having him or his comfort at night is really fucking up my sleeping patterns. I miss him, I miss the comfort I felt when I was with him. I used to go to therapy for anxiety but once I started dating him I didn't feel anxious anymore. I felt safe and secure so I stopped going. Now that I don't have that safety, my anxiety is coming back and I'm scared of this feeling.